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♔ Tuesday, November 25, 2008
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volunteer frm d audience
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May Peace Be Upon To You
1stly.
tnx all for d bdae wish!
rembering it is gd enuf for me.!
soo sweet.ma adeq suap me maggie.
she rmbr me sey sbelm mkn.
unlike me.stgh jln den i offer em!
hah.
project suck big time today.
nex wk presentation.
den still gt alot of things to do like tt.
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their attitude made me feel demoralise.
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fad is sad.
my story(a volunteer frm d audience)
i wasn't really d attention-demandin type.
infact,i wld say i ws rather quiet n shy.
n bcos of my shy disposition,i ws often ignored or simply forgotten
about.
mos of the tyme, i ws left out of conversations or
shuffled frm class to class all alone.
its nt tt i avoidd ppl-i jz didnt try to b apart of activities.
i guss i felt tt if things ws suppose to be,den they wld happen, n i didnt really hv much cntrl over tt.
i liked to watch ppl, though.
i watched their lufter n their sorrows n the complications tt followd em through out da day-it ws very much like watchin tv.
i ws jz nvr part of it.
i ws d audience,clappin for the comedians n booing d villains.n i ws preety much ma social life.
knowin nw tt i ws more apart of d bckgrd
den apart of society, u cn understand y a small thing touch me so deeply.
any act of kindness by a stranger ws wonderful in ma mind.....a pleasant reminder tt i hd nt faded away frm da world n tt others cld indeed c me.
a pleasant reminder i ws nt a ghost, floatin aimlessly in a corner.
mayb thrs a way 2 b a part of the world n nt jz pt of da bckgrd.
till den.im still lookin for da way. ):
im invisible ):
they call me.wel LABELD me s d silent killer.
idk y seriously.
n i don wanna hear d xplainatn.
im afraid ill hurt even more.
hah.
but i wanna knoe.mayb i shd let em xplain..so i dont judge em anyhw.
dorine assess me.(medication)
she said i need to memorise the medication.
den other then tt.im ook i think.
assessment all ok.(:
alhamdullillah.
saw mr.mrt aft soooooo long.hah.
jz nw.during psych lect.
2 kiddo ws raising their voice.
we side 1 of em.wanna knoe y.?
1 of the kid,alberton he playd his psp den turn on the vol.freakin loud uh.
he sat at the bck of the lect theatre.while im at the th row below.
imagine hw loud is tt.?
den ma lecturer,mario.slow talk uh.
but this alberton.stubborn to da max i tell u.
the mmt mario startd tokin.he startd shoutin.
den alberton went out..finally.he did tt trice la!
freakin irritating i tell u!
mario is a cool guy.he still young la.
20 plus.
den when he walk off.
mario said:i think ive said this line 3 times alr.
den he laugh.the way he laugh uh.cute sak.funny.
n da way he said it ws funny.
den he repeat again.den i shout.''4th''
mario:nw forth time alr.
LOL.
funny.(for me)
i told some1.ive gt ind bld.den tt person.
ignored me.
hah.
racist kappa.?
well sayer tk rugi. (:
im jz im ma own world.(s usual)
always thinkin of random n stupid things.
like jz nw.
empty train.
den i ws wonderin.
y tt particular person chose to sit thr instead of d other chair?
tts right.no link.
m always spent ma tyme thinkin of this random thing.
den i ws wonderin.y they place the scanner at d canteen.
wad? they gonna mark attendance?
hah.
reach hm.spent qualty tyme wif ma daughter.
i bathe her.mmmmm wangi!
G da bsr sey.she jadik gemok.da berat.
hehe.im a gd dad.i hope.(:
fyi
alam ghaib love to b wif u when u r alone.
hah.
c? even bender ghaib ni hv the heart to b wif u.
hw kind is tt.?u tell me.
while wif humans.they ignore u.treat u s if u r invincible.
hw great is tt?-not
i overheard azmi,lect mate.
he ws sharing wif his classmate.
he help out for this wedding thingy.
jadi kendarat.wash plates.
den d whole event ws very,s he said,boring.
no music.no one like crack jokes.share.
nothing.
wanna know y.?
bcoz pengantin peh mum passd away.
hw sad is tt.?
i stare into space n imagine the situation.
den i felt like cryin.
imagine uh.kcian sey.
den 1 of the gerls ask.den y cont.?
azmi:dorg da byr aper sumer.so they go on jek.
den jz imagine.
everytime a day b4 ur ANNIVERSARY,is da day ur mum/mother in law passd away.
hw sad is tt.?
haiya.idk hw to xplain.
i bought the physical assessmnt bk AGAIN!
rmbr i lost it.?
hw suey is tt.?
its freakin 37.50 !!in sch. xtra 2.50
wif 2.50.i cn eat at north canteen.which will last me for da whole day.
wif 37.50 i cn buy only god know wad.
dgr2 korg nk kua eh this sat.
heh.
wansuey
-blacklips
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