cats.meow.

May Peace Be Upon To You.

i ws reading through ma powerpoint slides for psychology presentation tml.
n its ica.
haiz.my part is about low self esteem.
cm terraser gitu.
oh wells.
it says here (by research), the characteristics of a low self esteem ppl are:
-fear of trying new activities
-perfectonism
-excessive worrying
-POOR HEALTH
-inability to look ppl in d eye

well.some of it is in me.
hah.thank god some.
but definitely nt da last one.kos i love to look at ppl.
haha

shit.sch start alr. n im hating it.
been skippin sch.haiz.
saket uh.
tts 2 days straight.
-_-"
yest n today. smlm binget. nari..saket.
woah. ma stomach hurt like effin much uh.
i ask ma sis to fetch me.den upah her cookie.
haha.the chocolate chip cookies in ma sch sdp jgk.hah.
haha.alamak bertakong ma air liur.LOLs

siti reminds me of Mr.mrt.
argh. i sw him jz nw.
LOLs.jz an eye candy of mine.(:
*angkt2 keneng*
eh k uh. gt stuff to do.

wansuey
-blacklips

labels:ihateschoolduetosomepeople.

May Peace Be Upon To You.

lols.for tt pic.
yesterday ws hell of a day.
soooo many things happen.n i hv to admit it ws interesting.
n i skip sch.(for the 1st tyme)
all tnx to the prob im facin.hah.
well its over nw. n i hope it wld NVR happen again.
i felt bad when i think bout it.
but i know what i did ws right.
n i have ma rights.
tnx gfs(besties) and bf(best frn) for the help n advise yg berlambak.(:
OMG. being in a relationship..really sux..n i regret gettin into one.hmph.
i think.but i hope it wont stop me frm gettin to another relationship.(hah.)
well some guys are..STMF.
n i think he is a MF.
oh wells. im nt sad nor m i happy.
but i felt free s its over nw.

i skippd sch. stay in da lib for effin 4 hrs.
cnt even focus to read a sentence.!hw disturbing.den keep bothering irah n siti.
well more like irah.including bf.sowie.i jz need some1 to tok to.
n u sacrifise ur time.tok on da fone.tnx babe.i appreciate tt nk rbk.(:
den ignore his msges.n reply to other ppl's msges.
hah.well.i jz nid to avoid him.
frm being happy n excitd for a new frn..
i suddenly hv this 'phobia'.
lols.yess im all weak n its really irritating.
koz i made ppl to feel the prob i hd.
but i know besties n bf(bes frn) dont mind.(right?)
afterall sharing is caring and it can go a long way.(:
well. i dont rmbr susa kn ma frns this much until few days ago.
well i wanna apologise besties n bf.i really really appreciate korg peh help.
haiz.
everything is soooo effin sudden.
n i dont blame maself for being weak n stupid.lols

yess im dissappointd.very.
i tot he's d old frn i know but..i think.well i jus think he is using me.
mayb for pleasure. idk wtf he ws thinkin at tt time.
but i still hv the guts to stop him.
some1 told me..1 of the thing he likes bout me is ma guts to do something.
den i ws thinkin bout him when i ws wif him.
wtf right.?
omg.well.i jz miss my frens i guess.n i hope it will stay tt way.
nothing more. n nt expectin it.(:

i swear upon wadever(nt the canned drink eh.haha) tt the trip to sch yest suck big tyme.
oh god. i felt bad.but at the same time.aku raser bebas.
its like i cn breathe again.
*breathe in* yess uh.

only god n irah knows hw afraid i am when im outside.
im afraid tt he's ard.fuck.
but nt anymore(i think.n i hope).

i guess he cn find a better looking etc. gurl for himself.
yess tts right. n i know he will.
nt sure if he told he's close frn yet.
but if he does..i hope ma relationship wif he's close fren as a frn doesnt end.
haiz.

i swear.n i know we r better off being jz frns.
n i want tt kind of relationship to last.
u r a gd FRIEND. i hv to admit.but other than tt,i hv no say.
but yes,i felt guilty.

if i know this is hw it will b.
hmph.relationship.?tk dpt uh. bau pn tk.

well.wanna know y i gt into this.?
-kos i THOUGHT i know him.afterall he is ma old frn.
-kos i THOUGHT i shd giv it a try.
-kos i THOUGHT i shd giv him da chance.

kk. fad is all emo(m i?).bcos of this stupid realtionship.
haha.i realise its ma 1st aft 100 plus plus entries bout relationship.

k fad. he is a jerk n u noe it. delete all his STMF msges...
n cont. wif ur life.i know u hv sth much more impt to think than this.?
right? so dont waste ur time thinkin.n he is not worth tt tyme of urs.(:
-love fad.

yoga
*fad is strong*
*fad is strong*
*fad is strong*

kk tutop topic.
i jz gt to know yest tt ma cuzz peh laki kayer nk rbk.
he
is
freaking
rich.
til they hv this ''keluarga besar'' title in him name!
omfg!
i heard she is stayin in a 4 story bangalow(issit?). n... in her hse adr lift.
hw luxurious is tt.? u tell me.
AND he bought the land.like he's area.
O_o
well im jz shock uh..like big tyme.!
fooh. tk sangker sey.cm terkejot uh.
i ws like..''really mum? hw cm he is tt rich?''
k ive nvr been to tt hse uh. i wonder hw it look like.
lols.
me uncle says like the gate bukak sndirik peh case.
hah
she n her husband stays at the 3rd lvl.
her in laws 1st lvl.
her kakak ipar(tk clap) 4th.
2nd...adik ipar?
i dont rmbr.
ma cuzz lagik.she wants her own hse.
like ours.normal humans adr.she said boring.
i go.?huh.? bia btol kak.
ma cuzz nie.n her husband.cute sak.
they like the bubbly n childish type.
cute.even thinkin of em made me smile.
maser dorg kawen.. few mths ago..instead of posing like wad u guys saw in tv or magazines.
they pose like.giler uh. peace n rock n ily signs.funny shit uh.
but wadever it is.ive nvr heard of anything like tt..unless in da movies..
so ya. terkejot nk rbk.(: bkn boast eh.thrs nothing to boast bout.
nk boast buat apr.nt mine.!pft.

siak uh. lpr.
smlm tk mkn.emo.
LOL
today sch start like late.(11 am.when i tot its 8 am.LOLs)
so sayer stay at hm.mkn.
hmwk.tdo? no i cnt t tk ley bgn balek.

on last su.gi smbwg lagik.
wif me family.
saw Mr.Noh.wif his effing big family.
i didnt tegor him.paisey.hah
well.. it ws quite crowdd.til like ard 6.30pm?
me dad thought of stayin till 5 am. but den i gt sch the nxt day,n nk dkt ujan gitu the weather.
play at the playgrd.again.
tt day i playd the swing.gt bck hm wif fever.fooh.
den early morn on mon.i hd slight fever.kos i plyd the swing.
idk la. but i think gt to do wif da playgrd.
tmpt tu kn keras siket.
ma dad's frn saw her once.(:

i don wanna stop typin.. but idk wad else to say.
lols

shai said.well. he ask: asl ko tk ley jadik lady like uh.?
i take tt qn s complimnt.he said the way i talk is way diff frm amirah n siti.
he act out.''cara ko bobal cm.. jantan.ko phm tk?''
well i ws born like this.
loud.
irritating.
slightly deep voice.
but to think bout it. i cnt ans him.n i told him tt.
irah help me xplain to him. tt i ws born like this.
tt ass couldnt even imagine me in dress uh.
ass.
its nt like i don want hor.but i simply cnt.
pathetic right.? i know.
but u hv to believe me tt i tried.
but still.idk.dont ask me.
tts sad.being a gurl who aint a gurl.lols

k la.
wansuey
-blacklips

labels:typical despo! ihy for tt.!hmph

May Peace Be Upon To You.

woahh.. ive been sick.. n im nt done wif me assignmnt which is the essayssss.
stress.
tml meeting gfs..
tgk wyg.
weeeeeeeeeeee..
kk
last might..more like today.
we conference for like 7 efing hrs..?!!!
da kol 7 pagi den i felt sleepy.
i thought after i hung up nk tdo..
den me mom is nt in her gd mood.
thus she woke every body up.
clean the hse etc etc.
hah.
i ws pissed but tooooooo bad.
i hv no choice but to wake up n get the hse done.haha.

cont.
the conference ws more like a get together aft more than 1 yr..
they tok..n i b da listening ear.
hah.well nt all the tyme uhs.
what i know is tt siti n amirah laugh like no body's business.
siti laughter send chills n is contagious.
like the laughing gurl in msn u knoe one of the winks.
hahaahhahaha..
n some ppl yg keep braggin bout license.
*roll eyes*

they couldnt differentiate between amirah's n siti's voice.
seriously.they sound the same.hah.well almost.
buti cn still differentiate uh.
god i realise today u guys sound like a gurl totally.unlike mine(whichi thank go n really3 appretiate the voice i hv)
my voice obviously is a total diff haha.
rock kappa gurl?
rock lasey.(:
n i think it hs gt worse frm sec 1 to nw.haha.
kk power.

ma plan for today.?
finish up me essays.. still gt like 500 plussss words to go.
god help me,give me ideas..
amin.

ma dad is at home today.
n its christmas eve!!!!

i feel like wishing everyone 'merry christmas'
but OBVIOUSLY we cnt.
muslims arent allowd to wish..
-merry christmas
-happy valentine
-halloween
hard to believe but true.

but i love chriatmas n halloween.hw??!
i guess i jz hv to celebrate dlm hati.
LOLs

me mom cook rendang.(me fav. dish)
she always cook tt dish when celebratin sth or when she is on gd mood. .
its christmas eve....soo....................

amirah miss the digi ppl n so m i.!)': ph wells.
klu da tertulis tt we'll mit..we will.
tts for sure.(:

i ws thinking to unprivate me blog but..
i still wanna avoid ppl.
hah.

chey bdae bdk tu nk dkt.haha.

i simply love the weather today.
cool n wet.
just the way i love it.
ni klu pt laot.mmg power lah.(:

woah.. i went to da toilet for like 3 times??!!!
n i jz had ma 'breakfast' which is hot milo n 2 piece of toast wif butter n sugar.
n nw im having dirrohoea.

yesterday aftnn. i ws sick..like again..
this time, i spent ma 2 wk hols being sick.
wad the effing hell..?!!!

den i brought ma daughter for a walk..
kos she seems bored.so m i. thus i brought her down for a breezy walk.
yesterday's weather ws gd.
sunny(which i dont like at all) plus windy.(which i love most(: )

u guys shd really really really wtch avatar..
its a gd CARTOON story.hah
today is d last episode.
haix.
avatar is like everyday in okto.(wkdays only)
n nw.. without avatar. idk hw to spent ma half an hr.
LOLs.
(730-8 pm)

i bought a book 3 days ago.
new moon.the sequel frm twilight.
hah.ive read twilight like half way.
den its in the movies.. so might s well get the next bk right.?
bkn nk action uh *chey2 angkt2 keneng* but i read bk like effing fast.
im done wif tt bk!): k i wanna buy the next bk.(:

k nw idk wad to blog...erm..
im nt thinking anything but typing is thinking so m i thinking.?

hav i told u bout 'once upon a time?'
well i jz find it interesting.
'upon a time' they didnt say the time so it left reader to wonder wad time.
interesting.(atleast for me)
kk to aku.i think of things.like random things.hah.
once upon a time.---i like tt.

i wanna go beach.!
anyone?!
(:

aite.
wansuey
-blacklips
labels:sick.conference.randome.shit.(:

May Peace Be Upon To You

wooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
sch start at 8 today.
n guess wad time i reach sch.?
freaking 8.16 am!!!
masok class..ard 8.30.another half an hr..class da end.
wtfh!!!
at 7.45/7.50..im still at hm.
idk y da hell nari jadik gitu.
serious.usually when i woke up get ready n all..
it will be like 7.15.
ni when i ws all ready .. den pt gate i always hv this habit to look at da clock b4 goin out.
den *ting ting tiiiing* *jeng jeng jeng* 7.45 am!
i go wad..
den wa jadik kanchiong spider..
ask ma mum to ask me dad anta me.
the mmt pijak road..its 8.16 am.
freakd out.
igt tk nk gi..den luqman 'force' me to dtg jek.
den sayer jadik kanchiong spider lagik..rush rush rush.
suey.tutorial lvl 6!
O_o"
sw rudy.fatin bf.
walao!! he mcm raise his voice like tt.
''UH LATE FOR SCH!!''
i go""shhhhuuuuuutup."
den outside tut rm.diana bf pt situ.
idk if i shd go in.
den he said.
da lmbt tau.masok jek uh.
lagik ble tkt kn org.!
den biler masok.i apologisd.
heh.den surprisingly..she kasi me sign me attandance.
phew.tnx eh tutor.(:

den aft sch meet gf.!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..like finally.!!!!
haha i miss gfs sooo much smpai.i kept sayin arisa name when tellin story to ma sis bout sch.
lol.
den mkn dinner pt foodcourt.
den balek.
(:

shit-to presentation on thurs. ):
boohoo!):

oh ya oh ya.
CHRISTIAN THE LION!!!
omg omg omg!!!
freakin touchin siak!
i ws cryin in a lect.theatre.
yes fad kalu bb animals..i very the goyang.
i cnt stand it.
i startd cyring.

story:
the 2 teenage guy bought this cub pt pet store.
yess a cub.
den they jager. frm the weight of 1 pound..till 183 pound!!!
jus imagine.
they play ball together.. fun fun fun.
den one day da lion is tooo big for em alr.. so they decidd to lpskn de in africa.
aft 1 yr.da 2 guys went to c their pet,christian.
idk who warnd em nt to koz.christian hs been exposed to da wild.thus..
d animal instinct is to attack.
but this 2 guy.degil.
so..they went to look for christian.
den aft a few hrs searchin. finally christian appear..
he came slowly.. den a few tapak to em.. christian ran.....
and JUMP at em!!
HUG!
act like hw animals will act when they try to show love.
aww.. freakin sweet i tell u.when the lion diri kn.he is taller than em.
omg omg omg.
animals hv this love towards humans.
hw touching.
idk hw to xplain.
k.animals tkley bobal.like to us.no way to communicate kns.?
den they hv this relationship..tt mcm make em understand each other.

sry uh.sayer klu bb animals..tkley stop bobal.
hah.
well blog sayer.suker uh.(:

i told arisa.me mom.hajar.me bro.me sis.
so 5 kali sayer citer.n i dont mind.
(:

tgk vid nie.:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adYbFQFXG0U

animal lover to da max la kater kns.

den balek..tok to samson.
samson the cat.
very manjer i tell u.
wadever u say right..he will like jwb.
eg.da mkn.?
he will go:moew.
haha.spend quality time wif samson..
for like 15 min.
js siting down.well squatti down.strokin scratchin.
weeeeeeeeeee..i don mind like it thr till mlm.but den nk hujan nk rbk.hah.
sw kakak n hafiz.
kakak pki glasses yg bsr tu.cm tk kener.
she look funny uh.
hah.

den reach hm.i calld ma daughter,
''G.................!''
den.gi dpr wash hand.
den she nyaot nk rbk!!!
til bth ma bro tercengang.
faiz:''along.along pgl g nyaot!!!''
peh kuat de bunyik.haha.
wooooah la kirer kn.(:
den slm me mom.
n sufi oso like..''mak! mak! along pgl G nyaot''
mom:ye la.mak de da balek.nk ngadu la tu.
me:huuh? aper korg buat.?!!
*chey* *chey*

den i spend quality time s usual wif G.
i use to hold wif 1 hand.d other hand to support.
ni kali..lately i need to hold her wif both hand.den support pki bdn.
hah.
G da bsr kappa???!
bsr la sey.

k la.

kesiow fad.(:

wansuey

-blacklips

labels:FULL TIME ANIMAL LOVER.(:

alah..

idk whether i shd b happy or sad.

haha.):

ma fone da ble idop balek....

yey?

oh no.?

0rg da smangt nk new fone.. skali de idop plk.

actually nari aft sch.pln gi compang get the fone.

the 1 i simd.skali.

tgh skola.ma mum calld.

''along hp ko da ble on!''

me:''huuuuh?!alah.org da smangat nk bli fone''

den batt flat.balek peh disappointd sayer.

))))):

nari gi sch atitude abez.i hv no mood for sch today.

hah.):

tml prac test.

doa for me.(:

alah i want tt fone la.

den ma um ws like.

jgn kelam kabot.t menyesal.

den i told her. org tk pnh menyesal la.):

i bought thing last min b4.n i dont feel regret at all.

fad! ko patot mersyukor tau!

): but still.))))):

haiya.

chinese lesson ws s boring s ever.

idk y da hell ut became like this.!

everytime chi lesson. almost all da nk tdo!!!!

eh da la!

wansuey

-blacklips

labels:i want new fone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!