this is bothering ma mind. i actually thought of telling the truth. like all the FITNAHS ive been getting since sch start. n yes i remember each n every of them.
let me summarise uh,SOME.frm.. -nursary/K1 (full time madrasah darul makmur-which is nw for the orphanage-'ketok ketampi' 50 times! on stage, infrnt of the whole sch!-adr bdk put all the blame for eating chewing gum in the bus.padahal...)
-k2 (PAP.mum cnt afford, triplets' out! >.<) the tallest guy is aft me(bcos, aku baek sgt) instead of this extremely gorgeous girl, i cn still rmbr her name.so jealousy ws in d air.padahal....
-primary 2/3 (hong dao.ws blame to poke this girl eye.stand outside staff rm,PUNISHMENT)padahal..... -primary 4&5 (mayflower, rumours frm the popular guy himself, me txting him.-_-"spread like crap!) his classmates stop me at the staircase,in the bus(ndp peh event), canteen-both upper n lower canteen, in this snowbiz shop under ma blk.!!!! imagine uh! irrrrrrritating! just bcoz they tk didnt believe i didnt txt him. padahal....
-primary 5 (mayflower, teacher treatmnt which influence classmates) sumer bdk2 ader grp except me n this guy, fitri. so me n fitri satu table.left corner of the class.padahal...
primary 6 (xishan, my existance to new sch createsloads n loads of stories,eg. taking popularity frm a gurl) diary ws d in thing. so evrything tht gurl wrote in her diary. THE FIRST GURL WHO GAVE ME A LETTER WANTING TO B MA FRIEND WAS FATIN! but ws told not to, kos she is so-call the ''bad'' type.padahal....
sec 1,2,3,4 - its better not to say.
i learn the word sacarstic frm some1, made me s an example. when i ws in sec 2. ws wif 2 of ma ex-classmates.idk if both of em rmbrs. n frm thr onwards,i am me.. NOW. evil,sacarstic.haha,look at the bright side,ma sacarsms buat aku have this RINDUABLE label.(: ppl missd it.LOLs.
poly- jgn ckp la.
soooo many truth i want to tell, but, tk terkater. kos mayb, it might create another scene.
mayb u guys will go. ''eh eh deyni, da slh tk nk ngaku'' padahal i just want to study n be invinsible.s in invinsible frm all this stupid crap la. keyword:invinsible. but ppl seems to SEE me.another words, find fault. -_-"
i hope biler aku masok university(insha allah amin.), i dont hv to face any crap. *sigh*
like siti said, girls n jealousy nvr part. .........................
k dah, enuf of thinking bout being FITNAH.
2/3 days ago, i ask some ppl. why is laughter the best medicine.? they gave me answers, but i wsnt sastified. so i go read up.in this bk la.
ketawe terbahak bahak akn membuat tubuh kamu menghasilkan endorphin yg blh buat kamu terasa lebeh baek dan mengurangkan stress. yeap.
i ws spending ma time in the lib just nw, well, yesterday. when i realise, adr satu laki mlayu ni ard 20 plus. he ws sitting thr, staring/looking at me. i ws reading magazine uh, on maya karin peh wedding yg very interesting. then when i look up.i sw him. i ws on the floor, he ws sitting on the chair. i wanted to giv him the stare. like ''wad?!'' but de dah angkt2 keneng ngan aku. quickly i look dwn, tk pndg tht area lagik.haha.wierd. tau tau, when i lookd up, he's gone. smpai ma tengkok saket tundok.LOLS.
haritu pn. i ws waiting for the bus , ma hse area. then i sw this laki mlayu ard ma age la. or mayb 1/2 yrs older. he lookd at me, angkt keneng n smile. guess wad i did.? haha. i gave him the expressionless peh look for a few sec, then slowly look away. kwang3.sry boi.haha.
its extremely difficult for me to smile randomly to strangers. thts y ma aunty calls me ''SOMBONG!''
oh ya helpd siti yesterday. till like 4 plus. well, she ask for help ard 3 plus.. oh oh. A.M eh. hha.
i faild ma 2 paper. which makes me think tht im pathetic. try harder fad! PUSH urself.! ok golek.
ma adeq sejak da knl namer salib babu(idk hw to spell). asek ckp ajek. i ws like. org gitu yg ko nk sebot2 buat apr. well, aku hrp he taubat.amin.!
